things i have realized lately…
1. i am very PRO-life. i didn’t know where i stood till recently.
2. i cry. when i’m happy, when i’m sad, when i’m excited, when i’m angry, i cry. it’s how my emotions flow from my soul… and i’m okay with that.
3. i fall to pieces in the event of an emergency. the only time this does not hold true is if i’m responsible for the life of a child(ren)
4. i am my mother.
5. i’m glad that my journey has lots of little detours.
6. i love where i’m at.
7. i love the people that i’m with where i’m at.
if you happen to read this… and i know you will. follow your heart. it tells you exactly what you need. although you value the opinions of others, do what you know you need. if you listen closely enough you’ll have the answers. stop looking. stop searching. love what you’ve got. love where you’re at. quit trying to become what you aspire to be…. if you live your life it WILL happen. there is no rush on forever… it will come. and make sure all the things you want to be are things you want are just for YOURSELF and not for anyone else. i love you. the end.
A dear childhood friend of mine face-booked me a few weeks ago. (yes, I know I used face-booked as a verb. haha.) She is in her final semester of college and doing her student teaching under a sweet sweet lady named Rebecca Key.
Where am I going with this???
Ms. Key was our 4th grade (that’s right ladies and gents; 4th grade!!) teacher!! If I close my eyes just long enough I can still re-live so many moments in that magical elementary school.
I’m am now at the ripe age of 21. (going on 22, Lord… please slow time down…)
Where has it gone? You’ve got to know what I’m talking about… You know, that innocence of being a child… that feeling you get when you are about to go to the next grade… or better yet, the next school! I couldn’t wait to go to jr. high… and then I couldn’t wait to go to high school… and of course I just couldn’t wait to get to college! IF I could go back in time I wouldn’t really change anything… but I would have tried harder to be more content at where I’m at. I still get caught up in the “I CAN’T WAIT!!” game.
So, here I sit and it’s all I can do to hold on to my time. I’ll never have this day back. (As I’m writing this, I’m sitting in Austin piddiling till I catch my flight later in the day…) I can’t help but wish… at least for a little bit… that I could play through life on the slow motion button. You know, drink my tea a little slower, let more people cut in front of me, be the last one to finish my friday afternoon final exam, drive the speed limit instead of 5mph over… What’s the rush anyways??
Soak it up. Slow down. Breathe. Laugh. Enjoy. Love. and most importantly, LIVE. We only get to do this once…
…and maybe, just maybe, God put me in his life to help perfect him for her. maybe i’m here to be the best friend, the teacher, the cook, the adventure seeker. maybe, just maybe i’m here to teach him what type of amazing husband he will be for her. yes, she is a lucky gal BUT (i always love my buts…) i get to help make the blue prints. i get to watch the inner workings of a blossoming man. i get to enjoy the laughs, the crys, the what if’s. and maybe, just maybe, i’m getting a glance at something like what i will be in love with one day. and maybe, just maybe, without even knowing it, he is helping put the finishing touches on me so one day i’ll have my ‘him.’ and there is no maybe about this one, we are perfect friends… porch sitting, laughing till we cry, clumsy, kitchen masters, adventure taking, video game playing, sports watching, serious talking, endless hours of nothing friends. and that my friends, is a blessing.
new idea. here it goes. Kate’s Daily Soup. I’m going to start posting my top 3 stories of the day (or week.) I’m not too good with posting everyday, but i’m going to keep the world updated with my life and my commentary on it. get excited. BE excited.
i’m too tired to serve my soup.
It’s interesting how my life works… how life works in general. Recently, I was face to face with a ‘demon’ that I would toss far into the ocean if I had the chance. Well, life deals you cards and you either make the choice to fold or you make the choice to put on your best poker face on and play them like you have steadfast confidence. Rarely do I have a good poker face, but in this certain event I played them well. It wasn’t but days later that my brother came to me needing advice on a situation that had happened to him… And BOOM, it all made sense. I had to play the hand I did, because without knowing at the time, I was going to need to be my brothers muse. I knew what to say. I knew exactly how to say it. Words of strength and encouragement flowed from my heart with ease and compassion.
I complain about all the undesirable things I am faced with every day. From now on, I surrender to those complaints. I have been blessed beyond comprehension with a gift of helping people. Good advice comes with experience…. So what if I have to go through lots of tiny storms? Once the storm passes, I get to be someone else’s disaster relief. I couldn’t ask for anything more.
SEATTLE HERE I COME!!
get this… round trip airfare out of tulsa to sea-tac airport $121! you bet your sweet britches i’m going.
oh, and yes, I happen to be going the weekend before finals. bahaha.
Words… They are the birth and death of relationships.
— me.
